Reflections on Life, Love, Memories, and Eternity

I have spent much of my life trying to understand how things work, fixing what is broken, and finding solutions to problems others considered impossible. Engineering, business, community service, and ministry have filled my days with challenges and opportunities.

But someday, perhaps many years from now, I may face something I cannot repair or engineer my way around: the end of my earthly life.

I have wondered what those final thirty days might be like. What would I remember? Who would occupy my thoughts? What faces might return in my dreams?

I suspect I would remember the boy growing up in the woods outside Buna, exploring the Neches River, watching the stars, and learning from my father and grandfather. I would think of my mother, brothers, grandparents, childhood friends, and the generations of family who helped shape my life.

I would remember Leisa, our young love, our wedding in 1980, and the extraordinary journey we shared. The wonderful years, the difficult seasons, and the countless ordinary moments that became the substance of our marriage.

And certainly, I would think of Joshua.

I might dream of holding him as a newborn, watching him grow, hearing his laughter, or seeing that unforgettable smile. Perhaps I would remember him on the river, enjoying life without knowing how quickly everything could change.

Losing Joshua in 2002 taught me something no engineering textbook ever could. Some things cannot be fixed. Some questions remain unanswered. Yet even in profound grief, God’s grace can sustain us and give our lives renewed purpose.

I might remember the people I helped, those who helped me, and some I disappointed. There would be unfinished projects, unresolved questions, and probably a few things I would still want to accomplish.

But I doubt my greatest concern would be another business opportunity, a communications network, or a problem left unsolved.

I suspect I would want more time with the people I love.

More conversations. More laughter. More forgiveness. More opportunities to say thank you.

And somewhere in those reflections, I believe I would return to Jesus and the promise that has sustained my faith through life’s greatest joys and deepest sorrows.

“Because I live, ye shall live also.” — John 14:19

Perhaps the most important realization is that I do not have to wait for those final thirty days to understand what matters.

I can love more deeply today. Forgive more freely. Worry less about things beyond my control. Enjoy the extraordinary gift of an ordinary day.

I still have dreams. There are things I want to build, places I want to see, people I want to help, and mysteries of God’s creation I want to explore.

And I intend to keep living, learning, serving, and discovering for as long as God gives me the opportunity.

There will always be more work to do. There will not always be more time to love.

Perhaps that is the lesson worth learning long before the final thirty days arrive.

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